The morning of the mela, Meera could hardly sit still.
The great fair had come to Nathdwara, spilling along the road below the
Shrinathji temple. There were stalls as far as she could see — bangle sellers
with glass that flashed every colour, a man frying hot jalebis that hissed in
golden oil, puppet-makers, balloon-sellers, a fortune-teller's parrot that
picked cards with its beak.
"Remember," said Dadi, smoothing Meera's plait, "we have come to see
Shrinathji. The darshan first. Everything else after."
"Yes, Dadi," said Meera. She fully meant it.
But then her cousins arrived, and the morning broke into a hundred pieces.
Ravi tugged her toward the toy stall — he wanted a wooden horse on wheels.
"Come, you have to see this one, it really rolls!" So they ran to the toy
stall. There little Anu started crying for a balloon, so they ran to the
balloon man. Meera bought a glass bangle because it was the exact blue of a
peacock's neck. Then there was a stall of sweets, and a stall of whistles,
and a man who could make a monkey dance, and each one needed exactly one
coin, just one, and her little cloth purse grew lighter and lighter.
By noon her hands were full — a bangle, a whistle, a paper windmill, a sticky
sweet — and her purse was empty, and her feet hurt, and she felt oddly hollow,
the way you feel after eating too many sweets and no real food.
Dadi found her sitting on a step, surrounded by her little treasures, looking
glum.
"Did you see Shrinathji?" Dadi asked gently.
Meera's face fell. She had not. The whole morning she had chased one small
wish after another — this prize, that prize, each tugging her a different
way — and she had completely forgotten the one she had come for. The bangle
was already losing its shine. The sweet was finished. The windmill had a bent
blade.
"I ran to everything except Him," she said quietly.
Dadi took her hand. "It happens to everyone, beta. There are a hundred little
things that say, 'Come here, wish for me.' And each gives you something small
that ends. But the one we forget to visit — He is the one all the wishes were
really pointing toward."
They climbed the temple steps together. And Meera, her hands still full of
fading prizes, finally stood before Shrinathji — and felt, for the first time
all day, completely full.