It had been a strange day for Jeeva. In the morning he had felt wonderful,
clear-headed and happy, helping Aaji grind the rice, humming a little tune,
everything making sense. By the hot middle of the day he had been all
fidgets, racing about the courtyard, wanting to do ten things at once and
finishing none. And now, in the sleepy late afternoon, he sat slumped against
the wall, not wanting to do anything at all.
"Aaji," he said, puzzled, "what is wrong with me? This morning I felt so good
and bright. Then I felt all jumpy. Now I feel like a wet sack again. It's the
same me, all in one day!"
Aaji was painting a long white Warli wall — a row of stick-figures dancing in
a spiral. She did not stop her brush.
"Nothing is wrong with you, little one," she said. "Come, look at the sky
today. What did it do?"
Jeeva thought. "In the morning it was clear and golden. At midday big white
clouds came racing across. And just now it's gone grey and still, like it
might rain."
"Three weathers in one sky, in one day," said Aaji, dipping her brush. "And
your mind has three weathers too. The clear bright feeling — that is sattva.
The racing, jumpy, busy feeling — that is rajas. The heavy, dull, sleepy
feeling — that is tamas. They take turns, little one. They rise up over one
another, all day long. First one is on top, then the next pushes it aside,
then the third covers them both."
"So I'm not broken?" said Jeeva.
"Not broken at all," Aaji laughed. "You are weather. Everyone is. The sky
does not feel ashamed when clouds come, and it does not get proud when the
sun shines. It just lets the weathers pass through. The clever thing" — she
pointed her dripping brush at the still, blue patch high above the clouds —
"is to notice the wide open sky that all three weathers move across. That part
of you never changes. That part just watches."
Jeeva tipped his head back and looked at the blue patch between the grey
clouds. The heavy feeling was still there — but now he was watching it, the
way Aaji watched the sky, and that made all the difference.