There were once two seekers who went to the forest to practise great
discipline. Their names were Vamadeva and Pundarika.
Vamadeva sat himself down at a busy crossing of forest paths, where traders
and pilgrims passed all day. He fasted, he held his arms up, he sat very
straight — but only when someone was looking. Each time a crowd gathered, his
back grew straighter and his face grew more solemn. "See the great holy man,"
people whispered, and Vamadeva drank in every word.
When the paths emptied, though, something odd happened. Vamadeva's arms came
down. He nibbled food from a hidden pouch. He fidgeted and yawned and watched
the path, waiting for the next audience. His discipline came and went like a
flag in a gusty wind — up when watched, down when alone.
Pundarika, meanwhile, had walked deep into the quiet forest where no path ran
at all. No one ever passed. No one ever praised him. He simply kept his small
practice, the same whether the sun rose or set, the same whether anyone came
or not.
Months later a wandering teacher visited both.
At the crossing, he found Vamadeva exhausted and cross. The crowds had thinned
that week, and without their eyes on him, his great discipline had crumbled to
almost nothing. "I have practised so hard," Vamadeva complained, "yet I feel
no peace."
"You did not practise for the practice," the teacher said gently. "You
practised for the watching eyes. So the moment the eyes left, your effort
fell down. Discipline built on praise is like a tower built on the wind —
tall for a moment, then gone."
Then he walked into the deep forest and found Pundarika, calm and steady,
practising for no audience at all.
"And here," said the teacher, "is discipline that stands. Not because it is
grand, but because it does not need anyone to be watching."