It was the kind of Puri afternoon where the weather could not make up its
mind.
Aarav lay flat on his back on the warm roof terrace of his house, hands
behind his head, watching the sky. Dadu sat nearby in the shade, sipping
tea. They had been talking all week about the field and the knower, and
today Aarav had gone quiet, just watching the clouds.
"Dadu," he said at last. "I've been noticing something."
"Mm?"
"Feelings. They come and go like *this*." He pointed up. A fat grey cloud
was drifting across the blue, and behind it the sun kept flashing in and
out. "This morning I really, *really* wanted Ma to make pakoras. *Wanting*
— like that cloud rolling in. Then she said no, and I felt cross at my
little cousin for no reason — *dislike*, another cloud. Then I found a
rupee coin on the stairs and I was so happy — sunshine! Then I stubbed my
toe and it hurt and I almost cried — rain." He laughed. "All before lunch!"
Dadu set down his tea.
"And here's the strange part," Aarav went on. "The wanting came and went.
The crossness came and went. The happy, the hurt — all of them came and
went. But *I* was here the whole time. Watching them blow past. Just like
I'm lying here now watching the clouds blow past the sky."
Dadu was very still, the way he got when Aarav said something true.
"Aarav," he said softly, "you have just understood the last piece of
Krishna's map. He told Arjuna exactly what you noticed. The field — your
body and mind — is full of changing weather: *wanting* and *not wanting*,
*pleasure* and *pain*. The body itself, a gathering of bones and breath.
The awareness that fills it. The steadiness that holds it all together.
All of it shifting, all day long, like sky."
"Clouds," Aarav murmured, watching the grey one finally clear.
"Clouds," Dadu agreed. "And the sky? The sky never gets wet when it rains.
It never gets burnt when the sun blazes. It never tears when the wind
blows. The clouds pass *across* it, but the sky stays open and clear
behind them all." He looked over at his grandson. "That sky is the knower,
child. That is the part of you that watches the feelings come and go — and
is never once stained by any of them."
Aarav lay there a long time, feeling a small breeze move across his skin,
a thought drift through his mind, a flicker of contentment rise and
settle — and behind it all, quiet and wide, the one who was simply
watching.