There had been a moment in the dialogue that Sanjaya would never, ever be
able to explain in ordinary words. He had tried, when reporting it to the
king. He had reached for the grandest comparisons he knew, the light of a
thousand suns rising together in the sky, and even those had felt far too
small.
For there had come a point when Arjuna, longing to see Krishna as He truly
was, had asked to behold His real form. And Krishna had granted it.
In that instant the gentle charioteer had opened out into something
boundless. Sanjaya, watching from afar, had seen it too. Countless faces,
countless eyes, blazing in every direction. Whole worlds turning inside
that single, endless shape. Gods and stars and oceans, the past and the
future, all gathered into one living, shining vastness. It was beautiful
beyond beauty and terrible beyond terror, all at once.
Even Arjuna, the bravest of warriors, had trembled and bowed his head and
begged Krishna to become gentle and ordinary again. And Krishna, kind as
ever, had folded the whole cosmos back up into the form of a smiling
friend holding the reins of a chariot.
Now, days later, sitting beside the blind king, Sanjaya found that vision
rising up inside him once more.
"And that, O King —" he said, and had to stop, because his breath caught.
"That form. The most wonderful form of Hari. When I remember it — and I
cannot help remembering it — I am filled with an amazement so great that I
have no name for it. My mind cannot hold it, and yet I cannot let it go.
Again and again the wonder rises in me, and again and again my heart
leaps with joy."
The old king sat in his darkness, listening to a servant describe a light
he himself would never see. And Sanjaya, eyes shining, simply let the
wonder wash over him one more time, grateful past all telling that he had
been there to behold it.