The Ganga at Varanasi does not sleep, but at four in the morning
it is as close to silence as a river in an ancient city can be.
Govind was sixty-eight. He had been rowing boats on this river
since he was fourteen, and his hands were shaped by the oars the
way a riverbed is shaped by water — over decades, until the wood
and the skin seemed made of the same substance.
Every morning before the first puja bells, before the tourists
emerged with their cameras, Govind rowed out alone. No passengers.
No payment. Just the oars and the water and the sky turning from
black to indigo to the first bruised gold of dawn.
A young man named Siddharth had been watching him from the steps
of Manikarnika Ghat. He was a philosophy student, writing a paper
on the sthitaprajna — the person of steady wisdom. He suspected
the sthitaprajna was not a concept. It was a person.
On the fourth morning, Siddharth waded to the boat and asked to
come along. Govind said nothing, which Siddharth took as a yes.
They rowed in silence. The ghats slid past like a staircase for
giants, the smoke from the cremation fires rising in a column so
straight it looked like a pillar holding up the sky.
"Why do you come here every morning?" Siddharth asked. "There is
no money in it."
"I do not come for money."
"For peace? For God?"
"I do not come for anything." The oars dipped and rose. "I used
to. When I was young, I rowed for money, for my family, for rice.
Then my children grew and my wife died and the money stopped
mattering. Then I rowed because the river was beautiful. Then the
beauty stopped being a reason and became just — the river."
He rested the oars. The boat drifted. The first light caught the
water and turned it to hammered bronze.
"I have no desires left," Govind said. It was not a boast — it
was a fact, stated the way you might say the river is wide. "I
do not think of this boat as mine. Tomorrow it could sink, and I
would watch the water from the ghat the same way I watch it from
the boat. I do not think of this morning as mine. It is happening,
and I am in it, but I am not holding it."
"Then who are you?" Siddharth asked.
Govind looked at him, and his weathered face held something
Siddharth would later try to describe in his paper and fail —
an absence of wanting, of grasping, of the relentless I-am-this
and this-is-mine that churns inside every human chest.
"I am what is left when all of that falls away," Govind said.
"And what is left is peace."
The sun broke over the eastern bank. The bells began. And the
boatman rowed back with the same unhurried stroke, carrying
nothing, needing nothing, light as the morning itself.